You know what I noticed? When I get ill or real tired, I start thinking in English, and it's easier for me to speak English, but then there are all these friends and family and other people who can't handle my brain cockroaches and I have to translate all the bullshit from my head into Russian, but it's so exhausting that I can't even.

and yeah, I'm sick. I've got a cold without even leaving my room. It's freaking cold here, I've got the blanket and a heater is working on max, and I drink tea and staff, but I'm still freezing and I think I've got fever. Also, I'm hungry, but I don't wanna leave my room, 'cause it's got no heater outside.

On the bright side: the tulips my mom brought me smell awesome.